Thursday, November 28, 2013

Week 19…well, sort of…

Week 19

How far along? The ultrasound technician measured baby Barker at 18 weeks. BUT, since I’ve already have it in my head that I’m 19 weeks, that’s what I’m going with! Smile
Best moment this week: Going back to the dr and seeing baby Barker. Also, I got A PERM this week! I love it! I’ve always wanted curly hair. Smile
Miss Anything? Not really. I’m not big enough, yet, to be missing anything. Except that I go to the bathroom SO MUCH!
Movement: Baby B moves ALL THE TIME! Seriously, all the time. When we had the ultrasound a month ago, the baby was moving and talking! I think we’re going to be in trouble! Smile 
Food cravings: JUNK FOOD! But seriously, potato chips, popcorn, chocolate, sour straws, and cheeseburgers with french fries and mcflurries. My perfect meal! But I don’t eat like that all the time!
Belly Button in or out? Still in, but still shallow from Gideon’s pregnancy.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Pretty happy, but moody at times…I feel pretty bad for David and Gideon.
Weight Gain So far: I have gained 1lb in six weeks…that brings my total to –5lbs so far. I weigh almost as much now as I did when I got married! 
Looking forward to: Getting a belly! No, seriously, I loved my pregnancy belly, and I thought with the second one, I would be enormous by now. Sigh, I guess I’ll just have to wait!

Prayer Needs:

  • Balancing work with family.

  • Staying close to Jesus through quiet times and alone times with Him.

  • Maintaining and gaining language.

  • Meeting Portuguese women who want to build relationships and learn about Jesus.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Week 16 and counting…

This pregnancy has been so different than my first. Sounds silly and like a “duh” statement, but it’s true! And, like so many other things, it was not what I was expecting, at all!

  • With my first, I could not eat anything other than french fries, cheese toast, Taco Bell chicken soft tacos, snickers, salad, and apples. That was pretty much it. With this one, I could eat pretty much anything, but my nose was still sensitive, so I did get sick most mornings.
  • I really thought, this being my second pregnancy, that I would already be huge! But, no. Not really a bump. I think I’m a little smaller than I was with my first, actually. Which I guess is a good thing. BUT, the Portuguese really like pregnant women, and will give them a seat on the bus or cut in line…every line. So, I was looking forward to that perk! Oh, well, I’ll just have to wait. Smile
  • With this pregnancy, because I do have a toddler, I have been super, super tired! Who would have thought, toddler > full time job + full time school. Every. Mom. Ever. Smile
  • With the first, I could feel the baby move at 13 weeks. I started feeling this baby move last week, I think, but it is still not nearly as much. Which, I’m ready for the major kicks and jabs and rolls.
  • I haven’t had time to think about this pregnancy as much. I don’t feel “pregnant”. With my first, I was so obsessed over the blog and pictures (which I’ve taken with this one, just haven’t put them up, yet) and the baby websites and how big the baby is that week and on and on… I think with this one it hasn’t really become that real because I have a toddler here that I have to take care of, I am not showing, I don’t feel sick anymore, and I can’t feel the baby move that much. There is a little guilt that goes into this one. But I think it is a good thing because I’m not as obsessed.

SO, how am I doing?
- Not much morning sickness anymore.
- More energy…not enough since I have a toddler, but who does? Smile
- More of an appetite. I’m not sure if this is good or bad.
- Not much of a belly, now.
- I already almost have an outie, again.
- Feeling movements some! Love that time.
- I am looking forward to feeling the kicks and getting the bump!
- I miss not having to use the bathroom so much, or being able to sleep on my stomach because it makes me pee. (Sorry, TMI!)
- I am looking forward to my next ultrasound in about 4 weeks! We get to find out, officially, what the gender is! Also, I have a regular dr appt next week or the next, and will get to hear the heartbeat!

Some things you can pray for me about:
- Energy!
- That Gideon starts sleeping through the night
- My walk with the Father
- Balancing mommy and wife and being a Christ-follower sharing His love with the lost.

Be in the World. Not in a Bubble.

“How many lost people do you hang out with every day?”

That is a question that was presented to me this week. I’ll be honest. I grew up in church. I became a Christ follower when I was six. I have very limited experience with the outside world. Because being a “Christian” in America in today’s world means being at church two, three, four, six, seven days a week. We have activities that are “evangelical” at church where we might be able to bring our friends and neighbors to eat with us or play sports with our kids or watch fireworks. And those are good, for the most part. BUT. Let’s be honest. Those activities are more for ourselves. We want to be fun and have fun. But we don’t want to step outside of our church bubble. It is comfortable. It is safe. We don’t face those pesky temptations. And we don’t have to see or deal with or interact with people who don’t agree with what we agree with and what we believe.

I am like that. While I was in the states, I was surrounded by Christians. I was safe. It’s not that I didn’t like lost people. I was just so consumed with “being a Christian” that I didn’t actually know how to be a Christ follower.

We’ve heard over and over that Christ came to save the lost. Jesus ate with sinners. Jesus ate with the tax collectors and brought salvation to the prostitutes. But do we really believe it? Are we willing to move to where they are and live among them? Because that’s what Jesus did. And I’m not talking about moving overseas, although if God has called you to do that, then you really should. It will change your life.

But before you talk about going on a mission trip or moving overseas, are you willing to ask your homosexual co-worker to have lunch? Are you willing to sit down over a cup of coffee with your Muslim classmate? No, you don’t have to agree with what they believe. You don’t have to agree with someone in order to hang out with them and to love on them and show them Jesus and tell them that He loves them and died for them. The end. Because that is what Jesus did.

So, back to the question. How many lost people do you hang out with? How many lost people do you even know? I don’t do it enough. I didn’t while I was in the states. I still really don’t here. Not as much as I should. So, I apologize. I apologize to my homosexual friends. I have completely abandoned you. I stopped talking to you and hanging out with you and loving you. To my atheistic friends and Muslim friends I am sorry I have not gotten to know you. I really want to be your friend. To anyone else I have not gotten to know because I hid myself in my little bubble. I am sorry.

And to my Christian friends. Do you have friends that need Jesus? How often do you hang out with them?

As Romans 10:14 is paraphrased, in my mind: How can they believe without hearing? And how will they hear if I don’t tell them?