Monday, August 17, 2015

Finding Joy in the Mundane

Why do we as women believe the lie that we are worthless? I struggle with this daily.



Two years ago, I posted a blog labeled "Here's My Cape...I am not Super Mom". This post is as relevant in my life (add one more kid) today as it was two years ago. I am not in Portugal anymore, but I still get overwhelmed with the everyday routine. Maybe not overwhelmed. Maybe more overqualified and discontent.



Not many people know this, but while I was in Portugal I was severely depressed. It was not the picture-perfect situation that I thought it would be. I had been dreaming of living overseas and being a missionary since I was a teenager, and the actual experience brought me to my knees. I fought with David constantly, and I ended up resenting the culture and the people. (The people and the culture are beautiful, but I had a heart issue that made me blind to that fact.) The only person I could rely on was God, and it is only by His grace that I survived that stage in my life.



Now that I am home, I still struggle with depression. I relate so much to the movie Mom's Night Out where she says, "This is it. This is my dream and I did it and why am I not happy?"

I cook and I clean and I change diapers. It is mundane. It is boring.









And Satan whispers, "You almost have your Master's degree. This is beneath you. What are you doing with your life?"



I heard over the radio a musician saying that he wants his kids to change the world, and while I want to see my kids change the world, it almost brought me to tears thinking that I was a failure to my parents. Why would they ever be proud of me? I will never change the world.



But, then, that still small voice tells me that I am doing what He has for me at this season of life. I do the dishes to be the helpmate my husband needs me to be. I change diapers and sing the ABCs and The Wheels on the Bus a million times a day because my children are important to me and my full time job. I am teaching them about Jesus and life, and that is what He has called me to do. He has also given me a chance to use my seminary training in teaching young women about Jesus and His Word. He has given me several roles to fill. And at this point, any other longing or discontentment is selfishness on my part.









So for now, as always, I have to rely on God, even to get me through the dishes.

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Back to School Only Means One Thing!

Back to school only means one thing in our house!

FOOTBALL IS HERE!!!


This week, Coach worked around 65+ hrs (and we haven't even started games, yet!) It is nice knowing that he is doing what he loves, but it is hard at the same time.
Ya'll, coaches put in a LOT of time and effort into the kids! I have to remind myself constantly that this is only for a season, and that this is our ministry. Whether or not we always act like it or remember it, God has called us to love on the players, coaches, and parents in a way that brings us (and them) closer to His Son.

The kids miss their daddy during the day, since they are used to him being home. But, we get to see him most days around lunch, always at dinner, and we go up to the school to practice a couple of times a week. Both of my kids love football. Gideon has gotten to where he will commentate for me. (They're wearing helmets. They push/throw/catch/run/get hurt.) And Ruthie will say "ball" when we get to the field house. And she always can pick out her daddy in the field of players and coaches.

It's not always easy being a coach's wife and mother of two toddlers (and one on the way!) But it is so worth it!


This year, we have added an extra element of crazy. We just signed Gideon up for U4 soccer. I believe this will be on Mondays, so I will have to video some games for Coach to see, since he will be at JV games. But, it was important for Coach to put Gideon in a competitive sport with other kids. Gideon isn't around other littles nearly enough. We'll see how it goes!

Back to School Only Means One Thing!


Back to school only means one thing in our house!



FOOTBALL IS HERE!!!






This week, Coach worked around 65+ hrs (and we haven't even started games, yet!) It is nice knowing that he is doing what he loves, but it is hard at the same time.
Ya'll, coaches put in a LOT of time and effort into the kids! I have to remind myself constantly that this is only for a season, and that this is our ministry. Whether or not we always act like it or remember it, God has called us to love on the players, coaches, and parents in a way that brings us (and them) closer to His Son.

The kids miss their daddy during the day, since they are used to him being home. But, we get to see him most days around lunch, always at dinner, and we go up to the school to practice a couple of times a week. Both of my kids love football. Gideon has gotten to where he will commentate for me. (They're wearing helmets. They push/throw/catch/run/get hurt.) And Ruthie will say "ball" when we get to the field house. And she always can pick out her daddy in the field of players and coaches.

It's not always easy being a coach's wife and mother of two toddlers (and one on the way!) But it is so worth it!




This year, we have added an extra element of crazy. We just signed Gideon up for U4 soccer. I believe this will be on Mondays, so I will have to video some games for Coach to see, since he will be at JV games. But, it was important for Coach to put Gideon in a competitive sport with other kids. Gideon isn't around other littles nearly enough. We'll see how it goes!